Toughest Hurdle
Second post today and I'm in tears as I write this, I just found out that I've lost my son forever. My mother spoke with my stbx wife's mother to speak with her grandson and my mother asked her mom when he would be coming back for school and was told that he would be attending school there. It fucking hurts, I knew it may be a possibility that I would never see him again but didn't see it as a reality until just now. I can't fucking believe the fucking trash my soon to be ex wife has become, too fucking busy with her new little piece of shit boyfriend to want her own flesh and blood back. I would gladly give my soul and my right hand to have a kid as good as him to raise on my own, so many people in this world who can't even have children and she sends him off to live her selfish ways, what a world class piece of garbage. I'm so hurt by this news, I thought I couldn't go any lower in this pit of despair but I stand corrected.
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Sorry to hear that Rudy. Again, I know nothing about the law - but is there a possibility of getting visitation rights? I don\'t want to give you false hope, but maybe if there was a court order satying you had a right to see the boy then they couldn\'t send him away to this school?
Rudy, hang in there man. I know it hurts. Especially when all you want to do make things different. These situations that make the even more concrete are painful. Small things, big things, as they begin to happen, it becomes more real. And we feel that heartache swell each time. It hurts man, I know it hurts. And it\'s likely to get worse - but you\'ll be alright. And you have people here who care about you.
There are going to be a lot of situations that are out of your control as things progress. And you can\'t dwell on those. If it is something that you can do something about, feel confident in pursuing that course. But there will be situations, people and outcomes that you simply will not be able to effect. You can\'t control other people\'s actions or their perceptions. But you can control yourself. And ultimately your feelings, your emotions, they are temporary, and at some point, you will stand up and start living for yourself again. You may stumble a bit, you may fall back down on your ass, but you\'ll get back up and you\'ll be okay.
Peace brother - take care of yourself. Let me know if you need to talk. ((hugs))