Tough day

It's been a hard day.  Didn't make money at work(I'm in sales).  That's not good.  Went shopping for my redecorating project.  Felt good.  Looked at the bill from shopping.  Not good.  Told the decorator that I needed to scale back big time, even though it made me feel good for a second.  Felt good.
 
Got home, missed DH, called Dad.  Felt like throwing myself off a roof, then God caught me and brought me back.  Now, I'm sitting here typing this thing and trying to figure out how to feel good every day, or some days, or any day. Truth is, I'll take any second of the day where I feel good.   Hope it's possible or next year I've got to make some major changes to my life.
 
Right now, I'm gonna set a new goal.  Then I'm going to sit down and write a story and post to my fanfiction group.  I've gotta write a story where somebody feels better than me.

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Lininsocal
Lininsocal

Sh*t happens and makes us go crazy. These bad days are happening to many of us. I guess we just need to buck up and face this monster and not let it defeat us. I feel like an ant fighting a dragon sometimes.
What is fanfiction...can we kill dragons there...
Sending you a big hug...feel it...
Linda
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I like your attitude - trying to find some good in every day or making a change if it isn\'t possible in the present framework. Sorry you had a hard day, but now we\'re coming to the weekend and I hope it gets better for you.
Hugs, Gail
DianeMTB
DianeMTB

Keeping busy like redecorating is a good way to keep your mind off DH but it always comes back to hit you in the face. It will be six months on the 15th and today has taken an upward swing in my inward healing. I feel real good. I don\'t know how long this is going to last so I am going to enjoy it. DS really helps. I can vent all my frustrations and feelings out. Last night I was talking to the picture of Smokey and myself just venting out verbally my frustrations and it felt good. I am glad no one was in the room. Sometimes venting out loud is good as long as there is no one to hear you. You have to do what is best for you. Some of us are not in good financial situations and some of us are as we are all so different and with different backgrounds which makes this site real good. All the best to you in your endeavours.