Total meltdown at work
We'll today I was a totel wreck at work. I had to close my door and I cried for over 30 minutes on my what is normally my best day of the year. I'm a compensation director and we are paying our bonuses this week so it should be a very fun and exciting week.
I just couldn't take the TWW anymore, it's pure torture. I'm not feeling it at this point and yes my beta is only Friday and that still seems far but it's 15 days past retrival so I feel I should be feeling something at this point.
The worst point is that I do have some symptoms but after my BFN yesterday I'm not sure they aren't all just related to my meds or the approach of AF.
I was so optimistic when I was able to go ahead with my cycle. When I did my transfert and was PUPO I was so sure that this was it. They had oked my lining and since everything else is great I didn't think this could fail. I'm still hoping I implanted late and that I'll be surprised with my beta result but really I don't know. I'd like to think I won't POAS tomorrow but I'm an addict and I have tests at home. I'll try to wait, I already know you'll all tell me too. I just hope I'll listen.
You have all been so great supporting me and I wish I could concentrate on something else than just me right now. It's just so hard to already be thinking that I'll have to go through an other cycle.
Only one shout out today, for Alana my cycle buddy that get's to test tomorrow, really hope you'll get your BFP, we are all sending you good vibes.
I just couldn't take the TWW anymore, it's pure torture. I'm not feeling it at this point and yes my beta is only Friday and that still seems far but it's 15 days past retrival so I feel I should be feeling something at this point.
The worst point is that I do have some symptoms but after my BFN yesterday I'm not sure they aren't all just related to my meds or the approach of AF.
I was so optimistic when I was able to go ahead with my cycle. When I did my transfert and was PUPO I was so sure that this was it. They had oked my lining and since everything else is great I didn't think this could fail. I'm still hoping I implanted late and that I'll be surprised with my beta result but really I don't know. I'd like to think I won't POAS tomorrow but I'm an addict and I have tests at home. I'll try to wait, I already know you'll all tell me too. I just hope I'll listen.
You have all been so great supporting me and I wish I could concentrate on something else than just me right now. It's just so hard to already be thinking that I'll have to go through an other cycle.
Only one shout out today, for Alana my cycle buddy that get's to test tomorrow, really hope you'll get your BFP, we are all sending you good vibes.
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I really hope you get a happy surprise on Friday! I will keep holding out hope until its confimed on way or the other. XOXO
Im sorry to hear about your bad day :( I am rigt there w/you on the not feeling pregnant thing. 11DPO for me today and just have a bad feeling. it is heartbreaking. thinking of you.