Total meltdown at work
We'll today I was a totel wreck at work. I had to close my door and I cried for over 30 minutes on my what is normally my best day of the year. I'm a compensation director and we are paying our bonuses this week so it should be a very fun and exciting week.
I just couldn't take the TWW anymore, it's pure torture. I'm not feeling it at this point and yes my beta is only Friday and that still seems far but it's 15 days past retrival so I feel I should be feeling something at this point.
The worst point is that I do have some symptoms but after my BFN yesterday I'm not sure they aren't all just related to my meds or the approach of AF.
I was so optimistic when I was able to go ahead with my cycle. When I did my transfert and was PUPO I was so sure that this was it. They had oked my lining and since everything else is great I didn't think this could fail. I'm still hoping I implanted late and that I'll be surprised with my beta result but really I don't know. I'd like to think I won't POAS tomorrow but I'm an addict and I have tests at home. I'll try to wait, I already know you'll all tell me too. I just hope I'll listen.
You have all been so great supporting me and I wish I could concentrate on something else than just me right now. It's just so hard to already be thinking that I'll have to go through an other cycle.
Only one shout out today, for Alana my cycle buddy that get's to test tomorrow, really hope you'll get your BFP, we are all sending you good vibes.
I just couldn't take the TWW anymore, it's pure torture. I'm not feeling it at this point and yes my beta is only Friday and that still seems far but it's 15 days past retrival so I feel I should be feeling something at this point.
The worst point is that I do have some symptoms but after my BFN yesterday I'm not sure they aren't all just related to my meds or the approach of AF.
I was so optimistic when I was able to go ahead with my cycle. When I did my transfert and was PUPO I was so sure that this was it. They had oked my lining and since everything else is great I didn't think this could fail. I'm still hoping I implanted late and that I'll be surprised with my beta result but really I don't know. I'd like to think I won't POAS tomorrow but I'm an addict and I have tests at home. I'll try to wait, I already know you'll all tell me too. I just hope I'll listen.
You have all been so great supporting me and I wish I could concentrate on something else than just me right now. It's just so hard to already be thinking that I'll have to go through an other cycle.
Only one shout out today, for Alana my cycle buddy that get's to test tomorrow, really hope you'll get your BFP, we are all sending you good vibes.
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Roxy, I\'m going through a lot of similar things. I\'ve spoken to several of my friends who have been pregnant and MOST of them said they felt absolutely nothing until they found out they were pregnant, and even then they didn\'t have symptoms until like 6-8 weeks. If it makes you feel any better, I have NO symptoms whatsoever. I know my beta is a few days after yours but don\'t read too much into the symptoms. And, seriously have your husband hide the sticks from you. That\'s what I would do if I had some in my house!!!
I could of swore i wasn\'t pregnant and my cycle failed. But then I found out otherwise. Hopefully you will too!
hugs and hang in there only a few more days and i am sure it will all be good throwing major good luck your way and fingers and toes crossed
Hugs my friend!! Sorry the TWW is so crappy :(. Hoping for great news Friday xoxo
Big hugs. Meltdowns at work are the worst! I\'m so sorry you are feeling so down about things. I truly hope you are just testing early. There is still hope- no AF yet! Xoxoxo
Oh no, I\'m sorry you had a meltdown at the office! Even though your beta is Friday, at this point the time passes in a slow crawl......I really think yesterday was too early to POAS. I\'m not going to say don\'t POAS tomorrow, because once HPT\'s are in the house its all but impossible not to use them. So, if you do, I just hope you see two dark lines. Big hug!
I didn\'t realize you POAS yesterday, sorry, I guess I am not caught up! I am so sorry you had a meltdown at work. It is still early so try and not feel too discouraged. I am soooooo hopeful you get good news on Friday!!! xoxo
hugs!!!
I am hoping it was just too early to Poas. I will say a prayer for you. hoping your day is better tomorrow and you get some good news soon!
I think I could\'ve written your journal. The 2ww is complete torture! Doesn\'t it seem like time just crawls! Plus we are going nuts from the drugs and analyzing everything about our bodies. Hang in there sweetie. I really wish you were testing tomorrow too. I wonder why my clinic does it then and yours does it on Friday. The wait is horrendous and I know each day, each hour brings us closer to having a meltdown. I am keeping the faith for you! Hang in there a BFP could surprise you.
I\'m so sorry. It breaks my heart to hear about your day. What makes it harder is being at work, where one is \"expected\" to be the picture of professionalism or perfect. Hang in there. I really hope you get your BFP.
TWW is really horrible to get through.. So sorry to hear that you are going through all this emotions right now.. I really really hope that its a BFP for you and that you are only testing early...
It is terrible and the meds added to the stress can make you an emotional mess. Good luck and prayers for your BFP very soon!! Hang in there.
I\'m so sorry hun! I am sending prayers and lots of positive vibes your way! IF sucks majorly!
I\"m sorry honey! I hope you get a happy surprise!