too much on my plate!

Only four months into separation from Husband after 25 years.  Many days I am still heartbroken.  Missing him.  He is off every chance he gets travelling (he has way more $$$ than I do). . . . with his 'travelling companion'.  Yah whatever.  I have been hanging on for chance . .. slight chance of reconcilation and repair of our marriage.  But coming to the realization that I need to let go and move on.  He is not going to change.  And the disrespect of taking that horrible woman on trips mere weeks / months after our split. . . and continues to do so. . ... extremely hurtful.  It sucks so bad. . .taking the high road sometimes.  I don't miss the lack of respect and genuine love from him.  I don't miss feeling anxiety with his over spending, and gambling/drinking addictions.  I don't miss walking on eggshells in my own home b/c he 'decided' he does not need his bi-polar medication any more. ... WTF ?? seeing in all in black and white. .. sure puts things into perspective.  My brain knows that that I need to cut all ties. .... but my heart. . . .when will it heal?  :-(

Plus my aunt just diagnosed with lung/brain cancer; not speaking with my parents - fall out.. . .AND my youngest daughter moving to New Zealand tomorrow for 10 months!!!! how much can my heart take before it breaks in two  :-(  :-(

I am unable to get in with my therapist now for 2 weeks. .. . .think I will need to do a phone in call. .. . before I snap  :-(  My poor sister can only take so much of my tears I think