TOO GOOD TO LAST

WELL, I HAD TO HAVE KNOWN THE CALM AND PEACEFUL FEELINGS WERE NOT GONNA LAST,THEY NEVER DO. I WAS ACUALLY DOING PRETTY GOOD .GETTING THINGS DONE AROUND THE HOUSE AND WATCHING MY NEVER ENDING DIET...NOW I AM BACK TO EATING WAY TO MUCH AND FEELING LIKE SHIT!! I HAVE NO ENERGY AND AM EXPERIENCING BRAIN OVER LOAD....I JUST WISH I COULD GO AWAY FOR A FEW DAYS ALL BY MYSELF.I AM WORRIED ABOUT DAUGHTERS DOCTORS APPT. THURSDAY AND SURGERY ON MONDAY.WE ARE SUPPOSSED TO GO CAMPING TO CELEBRATE MY SONS BIRTHDAY THIS WEEKEND AND I CANT HANDLE ANYTHING NOW...I AM TAKEING MY SON BACK AND FORTH TO WORK EVERYDAY AND TRYING TO TEACH HIM HOW TO DRIVE.... I JUST NEED A BREAK.........HUBBY EITHER GOES TO HANG OUT WITH FRIENDS OR LAYS AROUND THE HOUSE WAITING FOR ONE TO SHOW UP.HEAVEN FORBID HE DO ANYTHING AROUND THE HOUSE,WAITING FOR IT TO CRUMBLE DOWN AROUND US I GUESS...I STRUGGLE EVERYDAY TO KEEP MYSELF SANE AND EXCEPT THE TERRIBLE TURN OF EVENTS MY LIFE HAS TAKEN ,BUT SOME DAYS I JUST CANT TAKE ANYMORE....I AM SO TIRED OF FEELING ALL ALONE IN THIS WORLD.I STRIVE  TO DO EVERYTHING I CAN FOR MY KIDS .I LOVE THEM WITH ALL MY HEART AND WANT THEM TO BE GREAT,CAREING AND SUCCESSFUL INDIVIDUALS. I JUST WOULD LIKE MY PERSONAL HAPPINESS SOMETIMES ALSO...