Too far gone..

I am so exhausted... Mentally,  physically,  emotionally, in every way possible... I feel so broken... And the only person I want to talk to right now, won't speak to me...  I feel so lost... I know I need to get over him, so why can't I?  He obviously doesn't feel the same, I ruined any chance.. So why can't I just let go...? I normally move on quickly.. I feel so alone... Very few GOOD friends... No one who ever likes me as more than a friend, except people who are just... grrrr.... I just want to feel like for once... I'm good enough... The way I am... I'm just so done.. I don't want to be alive.. I don't want to breathe.. I don't want to keep dealing with all these things going on inside my head... I can't do it anymore... I just want to feel okay....