Tonight I miss my baby!
It has been 3 1/2 years since my Colleen left this life. But tonight I miss her so strongly, so very much!! I think back and remember the last time we spoke to each other, in ICU, just before they put her on the ventilator. She was so excited and happy to see me! She said to the doctor and nurse: "Look, mommy!" We spoke briefly, and I promised to buy her a cool drink, because she was very thirsty. Then I had to leave ICU. That was the very last time we spoke. She died a week later, still on the ventilator and still unconious. I just miss her so very much tonight!!!
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Dearest Andelene. There are times that the pain is almost intolerable. I wish I could be there to give you a huge hug and cry with you. Just know you are not alone.
Tight hugs, Marlene
Times such as this are always just below the surface waiting to bubble up, aren't they? Sending you heartfelt (((hugs))) of understanding and care as you sort through these memories of your precious Colleen.
Thank goodness we can land here and feel understood, cared for and hopefully not so alone.
Hand in hand, Heart to heart dearest Andelene,
XO Joanie
(((((HUGS)))))
I am so sorry that you are hurting...this is something that I hate for all of us...the longing for our children...so hard.
Gentle care,
Ann
I so understand you today. I was with Jennifer in the hospital that last night she said I love you Mom and that was the last time she spoke. I was glad it was just us as with Marissa, her husband and family were with her and I did't get time alone with her. I know they are happy but the pain is unbearable. Try to be kind to yourself and know that we are all with you today. Hugs, Kathy
So sorry for the pain that we go thru. I was sitting with a friend of mine this afternoon and she lost her son about 10 months ago whose name was Jeff, too. Trying to help and console her just brought everything back to me and I was remembering our Jeff's last day and am feeling so empty this afternoon. Love and hugs to you and your precious Coleen....Nell
I so understand and am so sorry.....The last words I heard was "hi mom" and then she became unconsciousness on a ventilator.....Oh, those times that we ache for our kids. My heart is with your heart, - Sending much love and hugs to you, Colleen's mom..
I'm so sorry.
I don't really even wonder any more why sometimes it feels like the pain is tearing me apart... I've gotten used to the idea that its always going to. Doesn't make it okay... Nothing will make it okay... I just know I have to breathe and pray until I get to a place where I can see/hear her inside my head... I'm blessed to see her in her children... but none of them are Cara... still I am grateful. I hate that we all have to go through this... so many without any link to them of siblings, grandchildren... One thing I hope will help... I see Colleen in my mind's eye... I hear her... you give Colleen life when you share your feelings... and while I hurt for you... I can almost feel Colleen loving you in this moment. Hugs to you and sweet Colleen