TODAY WAS WORSE....

Late Saturday night:  Today, June 21, 2008, was the 1 yr. date of Scott's funeral.  It was actually worse than the 17th.  I remember when they closed the lid I knew that would be the last time I would ever see my "boy" on this earth.  Craig went out tonight.  I am a little miffed at him.  He went to the races with a friend.  I don't care about that but he apparently made tentative plans yesterday and didn't bother to share that info.  So, by the time I found out I couldn't make any of my own.  I will talk to him about that.  I spent the day "alone" at my garage sale and the evening alone watching "The Bucket List."  I don't mind being alone if it is planned and/or I expect it. I am feeling pretty lonely these days, though. There is a difference. No plans tomorrow except sleeping late and straightening the garage back up.  Monday I am going to pick one of my favorite students up and take him on a picnic.  I am looking forward to that.  It will do me good to see him and also to do something for someone else.  Aside from that I have no plans this week.  Although, as far as I know one of my best friends is coming in from Kansas for a visit Friday or Sat.  I don't count on anything, however.