Today Should Have Been Your Day

My Sweet Isaiah,
Today is supposed to be your due date.  I am so sad that instead of eagerly anticipating your arrival, I am still treading in the ocean of grief from your loss.  I want you to know how much you touched my life.  In the days I was pregnant, you filled my life with so much joy and so much hope.  I just couldn't wait to meet you.  I still remember at your 20 week ultrasound, you hid your face, just like your daddy does for pictures.  That made me laugh so hard.  I knew you were going to be a lot like him and that's a wonderful thing.  You daddy is such an amazing man and he loves you and me more than we will ever know.   
I am so sad that I had to say goodbye to you so soon.  How I long to hold you and love on you and hear you cry, but even still in your passing you touched my life and the lives of so many around you.  You have taught me to embrace life and to cherish relationships with your daddy, family, and the amazing friends in our life.  You have taught me that my heart is capable of more love than I ever knew possible.  And you have deepened our faith in God so much.  My sweet boy, you left a powerful legacy!
I am so jealous that you got to meet Jesus face to face before me.  I know heaven is so much more glorious than I could ever imagine, and I love that you are there.  I love thinking that you are not sad there.  Compassionate for us I am sure, but not sad.  There are no tears in heaven.  Isaiah, please pray for your mommmy and daddy.  We want to stay strong in our faith and honor the God that you see face to face so that one day we can join you in the fields of heaven.
So yes, today should have been your day.  And you know what it still is - maybe not in the way I had hoped, but I am going to treasure the way you touched my heart and life.  I am going to celebrate your little life!
I love you so very much!
Mom
 

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I hope you find the comfort and peace today that only Christ Jesus offers. Isaiah is in a much better place than we are. Try the book \'Dont cry mommy, there are no tears in heaven\'...I think you would really like it :)
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Such a beautiful letter to your son! I am thinking of you today : ). Nicole
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What a wonderful letter!

You are in my thoughts and prayers!!!
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I love your note to Isaiah. Surely, he is just as proud to be your son, the son of such a strong Mommy. Your little man is probably up there smiling at you waiting to be in your arms again too. Hugs, Stacy
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Very precious. I feel the same way you do that you learn to cherish life so much more and hold on tight to those around you.
Hugs to you today,
Crystal
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This is so beautiful. You are a strong mommy!! You have given me encouragement by your words, my faith is shattered right now, but you speak so beautifully about our God and his heaven and your sweet Isiah. Thanks you for sharing this with us!
Hugs and Loves
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So beautiful.. I\'m teary-eyed right now. I feel the same way with my little angel. Let\'s just be happy they\'re now free of pain and sadness up in heaven. *big hugs*
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What a beautiful letter!
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This is a beautiful tribute to Isaiah, your love for him glows in your words . . .
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I envy your faith and strength...I am so sorry for you loss of your precious baby boy Isaiah! His sweet footprints are heartbreaking...and my heart aches for you and I share you tears and empty arms. I dread the due date of my precious Angel..but you have given me the strength to be able to face it when it comes in 2 months...Hugs and tender thoughts are with you!