Today I start counseling.

After work today will be my first counseling session. Hoping that work goes better than yesterday. Funny how a song that i loved (Boys of Fall) came on the radio and just cut into me. Each friday night before the game we listened to this song getting excited for the game. Now this song just reminds me of the secret my husband was keeping during the football season this year.
I have never been on such a harder road in my life! Not sure if my marriage will make it. Never thought I would be in this spot or even wiling to try after something like this, But I feel I couldn't live without him. Or am I scared of being alone... Not sure because my emotions are just a roller coaster now to say the least. Praying for a good day:)