Today I found this site

My name is Sarah.

i have had many ups and downs in my life. 

I realize the root of so many of my dilemmas is that I don't know myself or choose not to.

i grew up the caretaker of a severely narcissistic father who was violent and volatile.

I am almost 25 and I feel less competent than I ever have.

I am not without my flaws. I manipulate others into liking me and will do nice things for them so they will be nice to me.

i can barely identify my feelings but I know that I am consistently anxious almost too the point of teara.

 I pretend to be perfect but inside I'm such a  mess

Here's to recovery