Today

Ok, stress with a visit to the shops with mum - very exhausting, but yesterday I was in the car and I just had a panic attack/emotional outburst I was screaming and couldn't stop. Fortunately I was parked but it was frightening. So broken. Today I had a walk thinking about the children and wife, the only contact I have for sure is a divorce. The probation officer yesterday said that effectively the children don't want to see me at the moment. I get it and don't blame them but I would love to see them. Hope I will one day.