today

it was a challenging day. it isn't over yet... I made a few mistakes at work and was sloppy and it

just felt like my decision making process wasn't so good.

I also watched my mood today - "watched" is a inadequate word but I noticed how

it went from really down, to really up and repeat ...I just, in that 'daily struggle' kind of spirit,
I tried to keep the perspective that people ARE challenged with their feelings and it's

real important to keep that together in thought and not blow it up in my thoughts.

I was altogether when I first got there (at work) and then I seemed to go up and down

and then my whole outlook seemed to unwind. I am trying to learn and grow- but I realized I was making

mistakes and I realized I have to 'hold it together' rather than let myself unwind and get sloppy

at work.

Anyways I go to therapy shortly. I am at home now and just enjoying the BBC and ate some lunch

and some granola for dessert. Really good. Something was itching at me just now and so I thought

to write a journal. I guess I don't really have someone to check in with here at home - so I really cherish

this journal space. I go to therapy shortly and I will tell her all about my stuff.

Happy Friday everyone!!!

xx

Mark