Toady

Today is going good so far. Its almost 1 pm here. I have about an hour and 15mins before I have to leave to go get my son from school for his speech therapy appt. Got up this morning, got him ready for school and got him on the bus. Then got my oldest up for the day so that he could eat and get started on his school work. After I ate and took my meds, I started coloring a picture that I started working on last night. Then after a while I took a shower and started coloring again. It feels good to color when I am feeling a little out of it some days. I have enough coloring supplies to last me for along time. I have around 160 books and so many gel pens that I keep in shoe box totes. I also have several breands of coloring pencils. I havent spent more then 20 dollars on any one thing of my coloring supplies, some books have cost me around 20 dollars but they are on good paper and realy good books. Most of my books were under 10 dollars each, alot i got from the dollar store where they cost me a dollar each. The coloring I have found keeps me from thinking about things that I dont want to think about because I am doing something that i have to pay attention to and i dont think about things that make me have a bad day. After I finished the one i was working on, I found another one to start coloring on till i leave and then i will start on it again after i get back home and get dinner going for the night.

I have been doing some looking up some things online about bipolar disorder. I want to know more about it so i know what i am dealing with everyday. I did the same thing with anxiety and depression. I ended up putting all the things that I found online in a notebook so that i could go back and read them when i wanted to. I am going to do the same thing with the information that I find about bipolar. I have been finding tips how to manage bipolar, things that can trigger it, tips how to cope with it everyday. I am going to go to the library to see if i can find any kind of books on it and see if I can find anymore information.

Here soon i wil be putting my van into the shop to get it fixed up so that it will last me another year or two before i have to buy another one. I was going to get a new car last year but i couldnt. I was thinking about getting a car or a suv. I had a suv once and i miss it so much. but i like my van and it has enough room for all of us in it. I just cant take it on trips till i get it fixed up so that it dont stop on me. So for trips i rent a car so i dont have to worry about anything while i am driving 4 hours with my kids in the car. I still may rent a car for trips to keep all those miles off my car so that it will last longer. we will see.

Trying to get my dad and sister to come down here for my younger two kids birthday. I normally go up there but with about to put my van in the shop and the things that i have to do around here, its cheaper to give my dad gas money for him to come down here then for me to go up there. It would cost me around 400-500 to go up there after i get a rental car, gas, food, etc. But for him it wouldnt even cost him 100 to come down here. Plus its just him and my sister coming here. Where with me its me and my 3 kids and our stuff. plus I dont get any sleep while i am there bc i sleep on an air bed and it is no good lol. So i said something to him about it a week ago and he has time to think about it and i am going to keep trying to get him to come here. Their birthdays arent till the end of march and early april. So we will see what happens. I am trying my best to get them to come down here so i dont have to go up there. Just hope that he can.