To be somewhere else...

I'm Trying look be more positive but it's so incredibly hard to do it right now especially since I feel so alone and hopeless. But I know I'm not alone..it's just hard for me right now to accept that I'm not. It's hard to fully believe I'm not completely at fault for my pain. I want to be somewhere else. I want to feel loved for who I am, I want to feel wanted where I am...etc. And I can't be where I don't feel I don't belong.
 
Kevin is supposed to be back before Wednsday. I'm not keeping my hopes up to see him but I'd really like for us to hang out with my friends on Thursday at the least. And I also don't want to mess anything up as far as our friendship goes. I hope he doesn't think I'm weird or anything...
 
I've got to hold on for the next month weeks. I'll be with my ex fiancee and I hope it works out.