Tired of the Bull ****t !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I'm so sick and tired of the two-faced bull that my boyfriend spews out at me so often. He'll tell me one thing, but then ten minutes later he'll literally turn around and do the complete opposite ! I am so sick of it ! 
I can obviously never completely count on a single damn thing that he says to me ! NEVER !!!!!!!!!!
Then if I dare try to confront him about how he's been acting towards me, then I'm the " bad guy " for speaking out about how much his actions hurt me ! 
How is it wrong to have feelings ?
How is it wrong to be human ? 
Is it really wrong to be affected by someone's betrayal ? 
Does he truly think I can just look the other way when he treats me like a piece of garbage ?
When you show someone about as much respect as an ant, you can not expect them to be happy about it ! 
How can he expect me to have NO FEELINGS ?????
I never claimed to be IN-HUMAN ! 
I don't understand why he would want me to be that way.... 
non-feeling... un-caring... not caring about anything he does at all ! 
And here I am sitting thinking back to when I first met him.... and I seem to remember that my " big heart ", and very " caring ways ", where two things he said he fell in love with about me.
WHAT happened to that ???? 
Was it replaced by the desire to be a damn player ? 
Was it the desire to use me, breaking my heart, and my soul, and leaving me so shattered that I'm not sure I'll ever trust anyone else again ? ..... 
Was THAT what caused him to hurt me like this ? Hurting me so deeply it's left me shaken, and feeling like someone's ripped my heart right out of my chest.