Tired of being pushed.....
No matter what I say, or do, none of it seems to ever be good enough for him. In his eyes, I swear that sometimes it seems like he's telling me that I even " breathe " wrong ! Who criticizes a person for breathing ?! I realize that this sounds like I'm over exaggerating to the extreme, but if you heard him during one of his raging fits you'd understand. During those moments he won't even allow me to explain anything to try to calm him down. In fact any attempt at an explanation is only met with even more rage ! It's like he wants to be consumed by the raging fit.
How do you even begin to cope with someone like this ? How do you live with that frequent display of rage ?
I haven't quite figured out the answers to these questions, yet.... but I know I need to... and soon.
I'm only human. I have my limits, no matter what he may think. I'm sure that right now he's assuming that since I took him back so many times when others would have told him to " go fly a kite " a long time ago, that I'll still continue to tolerate his rage ... with no end in sight. If this is what he's been thinking, then he's assuming too much since we have never had an honest, and completely open conversation about this. The only " conversation " we had - if you can call it that - was him telling me that he's changed, and making a statement that he doesn't show as much of his old behaviors as he used to do in the past. While that may be true to a certain point, still it's a completely subjective thing to say since it means that there's still a lot of room for more improvement.
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