Time Keeps Marching Forward

It is now Feb this has been ongoing since the last week of Nov.  I still don't know what is going on with me.  I really don't think the Hydrocortozone is working. But I don't know how long to keep trying maybe another week?  I do have a doctor's appointment tomorrow but it is with my gp not my obgyn.  I mentioned in my last journal but I have had a lot of acid reflux which I believe is effecting my breathing.  In the evening it is so bad and my upper stomach is so bloated that my stomach feels like it is sitting on my lungs.  So I am going to see my doc to see what I should do about it.  I am also going to mention my left lower abdoman pain.  I think it is my ovary and I am really hoping she orders a ultrasound, because I am starting to get worried.  I don't want to start thing big c thoughts about that area as well.  

I am so ready to know what is going on, and for one of the things they tell me to do to actually work.  I don't want to worry anymore or to wonder to vacillate from "it's going to be okay" to the worst case scenario.  I just want answers and God willing a cure.  

I'll write an update after my appointment tomorrow.

2/4 I was wrong about when my appointment was.  I feel like an idiot it is not until next mon.  I will of course try to see if I can get in earlier.  I am starting to get worried about the bloating.  My mind wants to go to the worst case scenario and now I have a whole week before I get an appointment and even then there is no guarantee that she will help me at all.  I am getting so bummed and worn down by this whole situation.

2/10 I was able to get another appointment on  thursday 7.  My doctor thinks that my bloating is nothing to concerning and wants me to try to watch what I eat and exercise more.  Also I did explain my left lower abdominal pain but she thought that could be my colon and I might be constipated even though I told her I am pretty regular.  She said that maybe it wasn't emptying out completely so she wants me to eat more fiber.  I can't lie I am more then a little disappointed and just depressed.  I really wanted her to order an ultrasound to check out my lower left side because I wanted to clear up that mystery, but no of course not.  

One good note is that my bloating seems a bit better, not completely back to normal but not as bad as it was.  I will of course try to do as she asked and change my diet, although i am already exercising 3-4 times a week but she wants me to do 5 times a week and I am just not sure if I can work that in to my schedule.  

My chest still itches and hurts and I am so all done with it.  I just want to know one way or another.  I feel like I can't fully relax because it is always in the back of my head.  Plus I am unsure what to do next.  Should I make another appointment?  I think it has been two weeks since my last one I think that is plenty of time to try the hydrocortizone and for me to see it doesn't work like at all.  Plus with how long the wait is to see a obgyn it will definitely be a least be a week longer.  I will try to see my new obgyn rather then another random one because I would rather see one person consistantly.  I will check back in when I have more info. 

I am just so... :(