Thursday May 23 rd.... happened again... :(

He came " at me " today... tried to punch my legs several times.... instead punched my closed laptop - while it was sitting on my lap - several times " ... plus from a short distance he threw a marker at my face HARD ! and... while he attempted to punch my legs... that I was trying VERY hard to keep as far away from him as possible, he managed to punch my right leg hard once ! ... Once was enough though !.. it hurt like hell ! .. Plus the marker thrown at my face left my face throbbing for the rest of that day - and into that night ! 

Did he EVER apologize for hurting me ?! ... OH HELL NO !!!... As USUAL ! 

Instead he did what he's done Every Single Damn time, and he blamed his entire explosive rage episode / attack on ME... and ONLY ME ! He didn't take ONE particle of responsibility for it ! It was the same as before.. " If I hadn't said this.. If I hadn't said that .. to him ! Then He wouldn't have HAD TO do that to Me ! ... because that's the ONLY WAY.... and yes he did say... ONLY WAY !... that I will listen to him !!!!!!

I told him a few times exactly how sick and tired I am of his threats, and especially of him actuallly hurting me ! 

But even me explaining this.... STILL didn't seem to sink in at all ! ... It still didn't stir him to apologize at all ! 

But... I suppose that shouldn't surprise me... since ALL of his promises to control his RAGE apparently were all lies ! 

He's broken that promise too many times for me to even count !