Thursday April 7th

Today i find, that i have been on this site multiple times rather then the once or twice a day. Maybe its because the grief group that i was hoping to join cancelled and will not be offered again till later on in the year. At 4 months i am finding that i want to express this grief rather then keep it bottled up. My kids have been through so much that i can't burden them with more. Logan  (6Yrs) spent the night last night and this morning he said. " grandma I still miss grandpa, and he died a long time ago" I had to leave the kitchen as i teared up- to me it was yesterday-Patti

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dschwartz
dschwartz

Patti . . . so sorry your group cancelled. You know that we here as your cyber family will always be here for you, night and day. Let the tears flow, they are healing. I know this is a tough journey, but you will survive it. You are a strong and capable woman. Repeat: \"I am a strong and capable woman\". Grief is not a weakness . . . it is the price for love. I will be thinking of you and sending lots of healing energy your way. Hugs, Dayna
bookdragon
bookdragon

thanks Dayna. Today is better. I picked up a shift at the library for tomorrow. Sunday my kids and grandkids are coming over, so a busy weekend. It is funny how this journey works up down down up, etc.
bookdragon
bookdragon

As i am getting ready for work thoughts popped into my head. I really never knew what to say to friends when their marriages ended. I was in a solid committed relationship with a solid committed person. our goals were similar. Our bucket lists matched for the most part. Now I think i have an inkling into their feelings. I was betrayed by cancer. I am left bitter. It must be the weekend. I seem to get all these dark thoughts on weekends for some reason. I must save them up