Thursday

Current description of how I’m feeling: BLUUUURRRRGHHH!!! 

God! I feel useless, lazy, weak! I feel like I can’t get ANYTHING DONE. I feel like a stupid phone addict, insecure, socially inept and physically weak cause of lack of excercise. My head aches and my breathing is funny. 

One of the biggest problems caused by depression and keeping people in depression is bad self esteem... linked to a tendency to knock yourself constantly for doing badly but never congratulating yourself for doing well. 

What am I doing? Yes, that’s what I’m doing. I’m anxious. Depressed. Dissociating. Possibly some other stuff that I don’t know about. And it’s hard to think of anything good about myself. 

One of the hardest parts of depression is changing the way you think. 

I’m... caring. Honest. Able to think logically if I try. I can draw well. I’m sensitive to other’s feelings. I’m encouraging. I try to be helpful. I try to be confident. I tryat things. 

Just a normal session of not feeling great. It’d probably be better if I could get over this phone addiction as of late :,)