through the fog

funny idea right now - going through the fog. Though this seems slightly coherent, I'm trying ( with no luck) to pay bills and balance the checkbook and make plans to get aroung this week. SO much fun to organize since I STILL don't have my truck back. Yes, I admit I"m starting to hate the sight or thought of it!!!! And maybe hy husband's year long "project" which somehow (I sweaR) i thought could have been either fixed or scrapped by now. Am about ready to set it on fire (after checking for thr proper insurance payoff status). Grrr. And what in the world possessed me to move way up in the mountains where there is virtually NO public transportation AT ALL!!!! Grrr again.And frankly, while I'm ranting - I AM SICK OF THE RAIN!! Everything hurts, even down to my freaking knuckles! and now that Christmas is over - I am ready for Spring!

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Ohouch777
Ohouch777

Hi fellow sufferer:
Before I saw your post, I was admiring God's artistic beauty while looking at the snow covered evergreens.up high on the hill behind us. We had our first real snow last nite and here it's almost spring. I enjoy the snow , I consider this a gift just for me from God. He knows all my suffering.

I believe all these things: ear, nose, and throat problems; in addition to the : fibro, PTSD, Depression, anxiety, arthritis, eye problems, back, hip and other are all temporary. God will eventually relieve me from some or all of it. Glory be to God my salvation, strength and my deliverer.!

When I read your comments, it reassured me that I've made a good decision by not thinkin about movin to the mountains. There are SO MANY great things about livin in the mountains. But, as you mentioned, it is very isolating. I pray for you and that you find some solace in this site and the people visiting here. God bless and keep you.
Most heart felt,
countingmyblessings
countingmyblessings

Dear friend. thank you SO much for your kind encouraging words! I just re-read this and MAN was I having a bad day. Guess we all have 'em; but then there are so many good days and moments too. I love living here because you are not close enough to spit in your neighbor's eye, thank you, and if I want to blare and sing with worship music all day, or walk around the house or yard praying loudly, I just can. Ironic really that there is so much "fear of man" in me that I would think of NOT worshipping at top volume because it might offend someone. Hmm. Only He knows: our pain, suffering, doubts, fears, loneliness in intimacy. I have fibro, degenerative joint and disc disease and arthritis. When the pain becomes excruciating and nothing relieves it, I ask for God to give me the "sight of Stephen", so that I, too, may see His face in heaven as I am being stoned. He is faithful ! Thank you again and God bless you too.