Thoughts from yesterday

i am starting to find myself, how I see my relationship to grace and see how when when I am alone, a conversation with Christ is a conversation of grace and love and reassurance and focus. It supports me in the solitude and keeps me on my journey and goals. I’ve come to understand my mother so well after today's long drive back to St. Nina’s too. We can’t all be strong and sometimes knowing that and yet continuing our journey and relationship to grace and Christ and love is a strengthening support. I’m finding this structure here is good for me. This time at the monastery is so so good!! Im finding my strength and acceptance of my flaws with a remedy.  I’m sure my experience will evolve and grow, thankful!

I wrote this part earlier in the day when I felt unsure but I wanted to include it. I realize there are those who take advantage and try to derail your relationship to grace ( which is your trajectory and outlook). But you have to be strong enough or determined too keep yourself inside steady on plan . Perhaps in that conversation that I mentioned? Life can be vulnerable but the numbness of contact with harsh ones should not 

take all your focus. You need to survive and keep on keeping on.