This sucks

Hung out with John yesterday at my own house and forced myself to feel normal for about 4 hours. Tried the lamictal last night and woke up today feeling awful with a stiff neck. I was told to take it at bedtime with the trazodone so I did. It was awful. I already have awful night sweats and they were super bad last night. I think I fell asleep at 4:30. Woke up at 8 :30 when my mom told me she was leaving and couldn't fall back asleep. The sweating was terrible. I'm exhausted but I'm afraid to sleep again. Watching Remember the Titans for the 100th time just to stare at something.