This morning

Finding peace because I need it.

You guys and this place are so special.

I find myself swimming in the anxiety and peace of the moment. Full tilt chores here as the monastery opens up again. I have acceptance for my life here and yet I also question it. The idea of controlling my fate and having the access to choice is a mixed bag. I am grateful and yet also keenly aware of my solitary path that I am making. I think that's the mix a lot of us share. I'm thinking about Rich, I'm thinking about my friends and family too.

perhaps it's an illusion sort of a quantum leap that we are together and yet separate. That we are interdependent.

It's all ok. I'm finding peace. It's not bitter sweet but maybe just resolution