THIS IS TOUGH!

FRIDAY NIGHT:  It is one day shy of 2 wks. since Melissa's passing.  I am still in shock, I think.  I miss her a lot!  It is just 11 days until Scott's 1st angel date.  I have been remembering those last few days.....  I am a mess!  Too much, too much!  I did have a wonderful chat with one of my DS friends last night.  It helped.  I think we both laughed and that was good. Adam is doing as well as he can.  He is hanging with friends, fishing, and hanging with me.  Never really alone.  I worry about him.  I worry about me.  I am so grateful to be off work for the summer.  The weather, however, has been awful.  Either it has been WINDY (40-45 mph) or rainy.  I have not been able to get in the pool yet.  I am looking forward to it!   I just don't know how I will continue to do this day after day for the rest of my life.  i just feel so empty!  Thank you to all who have been so supportive.  You are my strength when I cannot walk this journey on my own.  Peaceful wishes