This is the end or beginning as I know it.

Today I will stay calm at all time. Mary will be home or not in 6 hours or so. So I will take it smooth today. My sister in law trying to convince me to stay with my wife. I am done with it. I have love her even in bad times.  She accuse me of using her. I you kidding me?  But a new day is coming and I will be in another mess. I will take it one day at a time. I am one day closer to going home. I don't know what to expect. Even when I get home and start working. I will only pull about 2000 a month. But I am excited. I hope that my family will respect  my views.  I hope maybe another woman will find an interest in me. I will not apologize anymore to her. I was calm today concerning my anger.