This is the end or beginning as I know it.

I am going through a divorce hoping I don't have to go through this. I'm wishing that it is some light at the end of the tunnel, but feel like it not going to happen.  Divorce is not natural  process. My mother and father were together for 27 years until death. I have been through hell with this. I do feel stronger and realize I have strength to survive this.  It is very painful to explain to people who know you that I am divorce. They look at me as it was never suppose to happen. They was looking to me for marriage strengh. I feel bad that I let them down.  Both of our families tell us to stay together but their marriages have been a mess for years. All I know is I'm going back home broken, financially broke too( I been in school not working) and torn down. I'm seeking  help when I get home. It is not easy moving back home to my family, I been away for 13 years.