things that were said

Going over in my mind the last conversation we had before I left you. The one with me in the car and you standing outside. I don't even remember the whole thing, I was so angry, but snippets ....

1. You asked me to stay at least that night. Not sure if that was because it was dark and I was upset, or because you wanted to talk further. I remember replying "why should I?"

2. At one point you said "maybe I shouldn't be in a relationship"

3. I was listing my good points to you. Forget exactly what I said, but I remember at one point you cringed a little--I think it was when I said I was good in bed. (Yep, that's over, buddy). then I said "I deserve better than this" and you agreed

4. You said "You'll never trust me again" and I asked whose fault that was, and you said "mine"

5. You mentioned a few times that we'd talk again, even though I told you I was blocking you. Also, when I said goodbye to you, you said something like "don't say goodbye"

6. I'm trying to remember if you ever said you were sorry--I think you did at first, but I was too mad to listen

We talked a few times when I was on my way home--part of it was me giving you the opportunity to ask me to come back and talk, but you didn't take it. Mostly it was if I was all right to drive home. The next day when I called you to ask what of your stuff you wanted me to send we talked a few minutes. I then said "this is the last time you're going to talk to me, do you have anything you want to say?" You said "no"

Just writing all this down while it's in my head. Maybe one day I can make sense of it