things that are puzzling

things that are puzzling about myself and why I have to deal with such

intense energies highflying or just massive 'go go force' are coming to mind tonight

as I try to sleep.

I have been recently and usually  thinking about them (the energies) as something to fight - something to question

in so far as 'why does this happen to me?' 

I've been thinking lately about structure we create for ourselves in life and how we all give that to ourselves in some form 

or another to manage the trials of daily life and survival and success.

So with that kind of scope in mind tonight regarding managing life (and keeping life going)

I realized that these energies that I struggle with and fight may just be a part of my individuality

as a human being. Simply put, these are some things I know about my corporeal make up that have

to be provided for. I've said it before in so far as having 'go to things' to help me fall asleep.

I just am coming to it from another angle tonight. Not judging or begrudging myself

but as a kind of personal humanity - empathy - we all have things individual and unique

to ourselves that we have to make measures for. Know thyself. :)

Peace.