Things on my mind

I dont want to title this bc a lot is happening, since my last entry.

Well, my daugther is in colllege, I have one more kid to go before empty nest kicks in. OMg, I dont really care bc Im always alone anyway.

Next, is I stop talking to my best friend of 20+ years bc she thought it would be okay to give my daughter nothing but SCRUNCHIES for a parting gift. 20+ years and this is it...

The reason why Im more upset than I should be is bc I speak to her more than anyone else, she knew my woes and my stresses, so it was a slap in the face for the minimalization of gifting. And some may say, its not her place, but remember I know her for 20+ years, Ive seen her magic with money and her gifting for others, she breaks heaven and hell to make sure "suchandsuch" has this and that. I know her bc of those years. A FUCIN PACK OF SCRUNCHIES, when we just spoke and I told her that I was breaking the bank for the few items I was getting. I feel that our friendship was a farce, something to add to the "cart". I wouldve never had done some shit like that. Just the days b4 I offered her family, my extra laptop just to let them use. I know that she was having troubles with her computer. THAT is the type of friendship I bring to the table. YAS BITCH YAS, I measure, especially when the times are tough. It is useful than to measure. I dont need a talking buddy then, I need a active buddy. Then she tells me that she is strapped bc this and that, and she didnt want to "stress" me out with her life bc I was stressed with mine. NOW, when we started doing that? Fuck-Out- Here. Anyway, that is on my mind. I send her ass to spam and has not text, called or IG her since. Fuck Off with the bullshit. And u can tell she was lying bc she did not answer back. 20+ years give you these tid bits about a person.

Now, jumping back to my daugther. She calls to tell me that she thinks she is Bi-sexual. Oh Boy!! I dont know, her father told me this b4 she called bc she told him 1st. So the blow was not too much. and I had more time to process. She is kinda tomboyish, but sexual? Idk, I think she needs more time with boys as dates. She is sandwich between her brothers and Im not very feminine all the time. I told her to wait, she is only 18. Sometimes things change. Plus, I really need her to concentrate on her books. Im praying for her to not be..... it is hard being black, & female, she does not need another something to deal with.

Next school, I cannot wait until Im free.... Jan is my graduation date, if I continue straight through. Please God give me the strength.