Things Move On

Even when you don't really realize it!  I've read several journals from friends here on DS and see how they are moving forward.  I was talking with a friend about how she is moving forward, but feels her heart is left behind.  In that moment, I realized that your heart does catch up eventually, and that mine has while I wasn't even watching! 
I had made a decision to stop just surviving and to start really living.  Part of that decision was to journal more, which I have been doing.  Part of that decision was to spend my break off school processing all the things I felt I needed to process.  When I first came here, I was such an emotional mess that I could not even talk about many details or specific examples of all that had happened.  And I certainly couldn't break them down and really look at them!  I have been doing this.  Trying to post or journal about everything I remember or that comes into my mind.  I feel a bit like I am blowing the the cobwebs out of the way and cleaning the attic, so to speak, so that I can make room for new growth and learning over the next year.  I still have another week before I return to classes.  I will continue my cleaning over the next few days as I ready myself for the next stage of my journey.
For the first time in a long time, I'm really exciting and hopeful about the coming year!!