things i have been up too lately
Well I have been going through a few things lately. I have been looking up some information about autism bc i have a child that is on the sepctrum. I just was wanting to know as much about it as i can, so i did my own research about it all and put together a notebook by sections so that i can go back and read parts as i need to and also so that I can add to it as time goes down. I am now working on looking up inforamtion about bipolar 1 disorder, so that I can understand more about what I am dealing with myself. I have been looking up as much as i can to learn as much as I can. I am going to also make a notebook with the information that I find about bipolar too. I am thinking about doingone about depression and anxiety too since i have those myself too. I just dont know what else that I can do right now bc i feel so lost and confused at times about it all. I just dont know what else that I can do then what I am trying to do right now. I have lost intereset in my hobbies now. I dont want to color anymore, which i really enjoyed doing that. I dont have the will to do anything anymore. Its like I am just sitting here in my house while everyone else is doing things outside and being happy. I want to be happy, but i dont see that happening anytime soon right now. I just want to feel better about things that I am dealing with right now.
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Good for you for doing so much research on autism, etc..., and putting together materials. I'm sorry you are having such a hard time feeling happy and getting out of the house. That's hard for me too when my depression is bad. Do you have someone you can talk to or do you currently see a therapist? I hope things improve soon - hang in there!
Thank you. I have started to see a therapist and we meet once a week. I wont see her again for a couple of weeks bc of not having a time open for when I could make it with all my kids appts each week. I am trying to stay calm and all but its hard, very hard.