Things are not great here

I literally hate myself this past year Ive been in deep depression bipolar cycled not knowing who i am anymore my kids are with my aunt temporarely until I get a place of my own grrrrrrrr Im currently living in a shelter in huntington ny ughhh not great for my mentality I miss my kids i miss my dogs I want my sasha back my kiki back and cheyenne back Its not fair.  people are so cruel in this shelter i only have some great friends there Samia and Michael are like my closest friends there then theres John I cant be without him.  Maryanne and Mark are like second parents to me but I need to find a place fast.  In the girls dorm I cant sleep so I spend time with Quintin listening to him plus he listens to me Quintin is like an awsome person there are times I passout in the lobby with him but I never got in trouble yet lol Ill make sure I never do that again haha.  There are some cool staff members like tawana shes like a sister to me and chris we all call him shaggy you need something to laugh about you go right to him.  Kat and mike and Dina and Jason I talk to cause I find it easier with them than some staff members.  I hate this one staff member ughhh Darby hes so cruel he treats us like maggots I so want him fired.  anyways I am gonna hang in there and hopefully catchup with you all soon bye for now :)