things are good...

I went to work this morning and for some reason along the way

I found myself in a very hard to describe frame of mind at the outset.

I was just very open and I really had no choice but to carry on...

As the time passed and while kind of dealing with all the stuff that came my way around me there at work

..I eventually started to just feel very hopeless, maybe kind of bitter and

with an idea of myself and about my life (not in a good sense.) I decided not to let myself go

down 'without a fight.' I kept on going... Then my work day ended..and though the day was ended 

worries inspired by a coworker stuck with me a little bit - but I decided to just

let that go...I got home, played with Blue and I had lunch and as I was finishing up I decided to just put in front of me the job of 'what I was going to do 

to help make myself feel good.' It was a good idea - I took a shower and got dressed -

I didn't have to feel some hugeness or brilliant way -  it just was such a matter of fact I kind of thing. 

After getting dressed I put on the TV and wasn't really taken with anything so I thought to take a nap.

In this process of all this I realized I find sometimes when I am alone and I feel a frustration or a feeling of desperation

it can really set off the panic within me..I'm also coming to the recognition that I don't need

to panic about stuff like that. I just need to like see it and then keep on keeping on...

So I just woke up from my nap. I think I'll take a walk.

No big news today, not a bad day.

Sending good vibes.

Peace,

Mark