Things are good

I am with my family right now and I know that when I am alone I take things in differently. I am basically everything I am supposed to be when I am alone, and also everything I hope to be in a weird sense..I guess I just don't feel a sting of my limits I guess. I don’t know if I am expressing it well but when I am with others I realize my limits... and I desperately hold on to some sense of dignity even though I am kind of the bump on the log in the corner when with others. But I realized that a sense of personal grace when alone and then when with others is something to consider. God I wish I were normal.