things are good.
hi ho folks, i am doing good. I had a full day of errands and chores today
and I served liturgy both morning and night as well.. towards the end of the services that I was conducting
here at the end of the day - things just started to make sense. my therapy lessons kicked in
and I recognized that when I get tired I can get self flagellating I realized to myself that I was not so happy with the job I did- and it seemed a pretty global condition to all my work -
I called myself 'mediocre mark' - and that - though negative, it was asserting some humor
and a sense of ID and existence in the world-- -and I just realized to myself
to bring myself back to center, rather than believe all that, that "yeah I get like that when I am tired' - it feels great! I feel understanding of my moods - and I know I don't always do mediocre work - but fatigue from a long day can get to me - -and when I am
on my own in the room I can have dark fantasies- because I am not getting what I want or actually listening to myself for what
I am hoping for - and they can take over if I am not cognizant.
and 'yeah I can get that way too when I am on my own'.. i thought
things are good. I hope you guys are having a good night. we all deserve good stuff.
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It's great that you're recognizing that you kick yourself sometimes and when and are trying to interrupt those thoughts sweetie
You're right 'we all deserve good stuff'
Big hug...xo
Thanks Janet!