Things are a little better, but....

I think I'm still leaving in August because I don't think anything is going to really change between us and stay on track. Though I have a better sense of what he's thinking and how he feels, its not a major adjustment or change to make me want to stay for good yet. He did say after things were talked out a little more that he does miss me sleeping next to him in the bed and he thinks that that's why he hasn't been sleeping well for awhile. 

What I don't understand is how someone can think that communicating is only thru a persons body language and mannerisms alone and that verbal communication is not that important. They all should be equally imortant and not one of them should be left out esp in a relationship like ours is and as long as we've been together, 9 years is along time and should be sufficient enough to figure out how someone feels with verbalizations as well as the other ways. That just really doesn't make sense to me at all. I really need to understand that somehow. I'm going to ask in a group on here and on fb I think that I'm in and see what ppl say or think. Then I'll write in the next journal entry what or rather how I interpretted what they said/think.

Overall this day has been ok, I got to mail off a letter to a friend that I haven't been in contact with for awhile cause she's been in treatment. I hope to hear back from her soon. I miss her being around and esp. miss her son who is turning 3 in November this year. I hope she doesn't think I've forgotten or given up on her cause I haven't been in regular contact with her. She whould realize that with the letter I wrote her though.