There is no peace.

I am starting to get a headache from all this shit my mind keeps bringing me. I don't hear multiple voices or anything like that. It's just the depressive side of my mind trying to take over. It's trying to kill me and it's trying to just make me fuckin miserable. I try not to communicate with my mind. I try to just ignore it and just think inside the mind I have left. Like a giant tumor is on my brain. With that tumor being the depression and it just grows and grows all day every day all year every year. My mind never has any peace.
My body strains all the fuckin time from natural things wrong with me and from the stress my mind puts on it. Sometimes I act on thos stresses and that makes it worse. That puts me further into the hole that I call my mind. My fuckin mind hates me and my body is suffereing from it. I want it fuckin end. I want to get this person that has been living off of my body and mind, out of me already. It's like a fuckin parasite. I can't get away from it like an oppressive security guard.
My body feels weak and my mind is going away. I have to block out most of my mind. Which means that my creativeness is limited to only how undepressed I am. I'm tired of all these fuckers and tired of all this shit. I'm tired of people telling me I don't try. I'm tired of being treated like shit just because I'm a depressive person. I don't want to be on medication for it. I wouldn't take it anyway. I'm bad with remembering something like that. I already have a hard time takin the meds I need to.
I just want to have some rest. I can't sleep, I can barely eat right anymore, and I just want to rest so badly. My mind just won't give me any peace.