There are days...
...that I really wonder. I know many, many women do it all the time, but still I wonder.
The past couple of weeks have just been a blur. The constant whirlwind of finding my 13-year-old son a trombone (who knew they cost a fortune!), my 16-year-old daughter taking her driving test, getting scheduled in high school, open houses, lists after lists of needs. And then today, I start back to classes. Suddenly, I need two books (each $100+ used) that I hadn't expected, the computer is crashing, the university's server goes down, my daughter misses the bus, we need groceries....
I sit here trying to relax before bed (I hope I actually sleep) thinking about going to school full time, trying to bring home full time pay to support us all on my own, and the low level of the current bank balance...the continue list of needs.
There really are days where you are not quite sure whether to laugh or cry.
The past couple of weeks have just been a blur. The constant whirlwind of finding my 13-year-old son a trombone (who knew they cost a fortune!), my 16-year-old daughter taking her driving test, getting scheduled in high school, open houses, lists after lists of needs. And then today, I start back to classes. Suddenly, I need two books (each $100+ used) that I hadn't expected, the computer is crashing, the university's server goes down, my daughter misses the bus, we need groceries....
I sit here trying to relax before bed (I hope I actually sleep) thinking about going to school full time, trying to bring home full time pay to support us all on my own, and the low level of the current bank balance...the continue list of needs.
There really are days where you are not quite sure whether to laugh or cry.
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Hang on. Things will get better.
It is so nice to see you out and about here. Its nice to really know you, your heart and soul.
I remember, after the divorce, raising my two boys, working my own business, only making 500 a month, having a house I rented at the time, to take care of, yard work, clean, cook, plus all the paper work. My only time to myself was to take a bubble bath...and go to sleep. I remember always being tired, those days are gone now. They are both grown, have their own lives. Though right now I do have my youngest with me since out of the army and also my mother now. Helping each other.
I understand what you are going through. I hope you have some supporting \'physical\' friends as well. Remembering to take some time to your self and take care of your self, as well. You deserve time as well!
Deep, deep hug to ya, sincerely!