therapy yields good fruit

in the past few weeks, more and more I am growing in awareness and cognition

that when alone I tend to want 'a relationship.' 

Lately that relationship has been that I have wanted a partner but it's weird

when I don't have that partner to talk to -

and I have already reached out to friends

and family -

that urge to focus on another person or just 'something' really finds a way to manifest in

way of my moment to moment mentalizations..

whether it's a project or a memory of someone - and thinking about them...

I know this may sound incredibly normal to some but the way my illness manifest as I developed

was that I was lost in thought and didn't have the gift of understanding...

Now I am starting to understand and therapy has yielded this fruit.

I feel confident...and emboldened! 

I feel like I can move onward.

We'll see what happens!

peace and have a good night!