Therapy Sessions
I had another therapy session this last Friday... Things are coming along nicely.
It really has helped ( I think) to get all my past junk out on the table so to speak. I think just the process of digging the stuff out and taking a look at it all has helped.
Many of the things one might think would be a heavy load, I don't think are so much. I looked at the sexual abuse I experienced at 12, and yeah, its there.... but not like one might think it would be. Even the rape in my early 30's... of course this was bad.... but what I have found that created the most baggage is my first marriage and the mental abuse, even more than the physical abuse, that came with it. The years of ongoing mental abuse from someone you care about gets into your heart and soul.... And in time you believe too much of it.
Also, the troubles Rich and I had a few + years back... well, I think I am still struggling with being ok with all of that. Rich and I talked to length about it all recently and that has helped, but it too will take time.
The best part of therapy has been the help in getting it all in perspective. To allow myself to know and see what my issues are so when things come up I have a better coping tool... I can look at the emotions and find how they might be connected to my past, and then deal with it all in a healthier way.
Am I cured? LOL! What does that mean? I am healthy and healing... and I am loving life. So all is well... and all is a progression for all my life. And this is good (and normal).
It really has helped ( I think) to get all my past junk out on the table so to speak. I think just the process of digging the stuff out and taking a look at it all has helped.
Many of the things one might think would be a heavy load, I don't think are so much. I looked at the sexual abuse I experienced at 12, and yeah, its there.... but not like one might think it would be. Even the rape in my early 30's... of course this was bad.... but what I have found that created the most baggage is my first marriage and the mental abuse, even more than the physical abuse, that came with it. The years of ongoing mental abuse from someone you care about gets into your heart and soul.... And in time you believe too much of it.
Also, the troubles Rich and I had a few + years back... well, I think I am still struggling with being ok with all of that. Rich and I talked to length about it all recently and that has helped, but it too will take time.
The best part of therapy has been the help in getting it all in perspective. To allow myself to know and see what my issues are so when things come up I have a better coping tool... I can look at the emotions and find how they might be connected to my past, and then deal with it all in a healthier way.
Am I cured? LOL! What does that mean? I am healthy and healing... and I am loving life. So all is well... and all is a progression for all my life. And this is good (and normal).
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