The usual

Well as i called it my boyfriend is out getting drunk tonite. Hes been loving so far but im just waiting for the call to be half loving then turn into emotional disaster. Tonite Im going to be strong and not answer. He has tro learn that I will have nothing to do with him and his drinking. I went to the gym today which helped my anixety it really took the edge off. I hope I can get a good sleep tonite without having to worry about hwat he is doing. I know that probably wont happen but im going to try and take melatonin to help me. I have a busy day tommorow and a lot to get done I cant haver his drunken emotional abuse get in the way of that this evening. My depression feels a lot better probably because i havent drank it deffinately contributes to all of the negative energy i have been having. Well im going to play a game of online poker then head to bed hopefully in peace. Im glad to be journalling again it is really helping me get all my feelings out.