the truth

I've been thinking about the idea of truth this afternoon.

I know with my time at home or with others I tend to try

and live with a sense of truth. It's really about living in a perspective

respecting the relationship.
Whether it is going to the monastery, or talking with my friend there

or going to mass or talking with you guys.

It seems that the idea of truth maybe what is we generally agree upon as well.

So like I look at my Dad and Stepmom and I see how they live in an 

understanding and agreement for what they want, for what they're going for

or doing and how things are handled. They know who each other is and they know

what common goal and survival they have.

I wish I had that and someday will. 

I also see my friend JGi who so relentlessly 'lives her own truth' of life...

She's smart as a whip and successful and a really warm and sensitive and lovely person.

She and her husband live in a common aggreement about who each other is and what they want etc..

I do feel alone right now, but not entirely alone. I called my Dad and shared my thoughts

with him. He's so great how he listens to my stuff.

I'd like to go to the local church for a mass, and yet I don't know if there's

a mass of any kind tonight. I'll see if the other church has it going tonight.

I know church isn't for everybody. I find myself kind of aware of certain things

about it that it's there for in both a spiritual and pragmatic sense.

My friend the Abbess wrote to me today asking "What is freedom?" "what (who) is truth?"

She was telling me what she struggles with or the question she lives with.

I kind of get how I would like to handle things in my life versus another's choice of 

how they might want to handle things. I don't know if focusing on these thoughts

right now are the best use of my time. It's a kind of navel gazing and rumination

that I go to when alone, a study of truths, which translates to a hard working efficient worker

when I am at work "On the go go go"..

I can't wait to talk to my therapist tomorrow.

I'm going to enjoy the rest of today.

Peace and good vibes to you guys!