The Struggle is a bitch and that bitch is...

So struggling really badly to the point of being physically sick from too much sugar and salts in my system. My partner really isn't helping the matter since he is no longer on the diet and he is doing well. The crap in my system isn't helping my mood or motivation either, so I may end up becoming a bit of an meany to my partner becuase he is just a bad food influence to me sometimes with food. I love him but he is a big butt to my diet. The blame doesn't fall all on him, I am a horrible food monster with sweets, I need to learn to say no or at least find a good reminder of why I can't eat bad food :P Like feeling super sick or having intestinal problems from bad food. 
Tomorrow is a big event for me: I will be going to the gym!!! I always hate going to the gym becuase I am overweight by a good 80 pounds (lost nearly 20 pounds so far!). I would workout at home and did great but having access to equipment really helps the process. So I am swallowing my fear, putting on the big girl panties, and going to the gym in the early morning. Hopefully it's not too terrible :P