The same and yet different

I was having a hard time feeling engaged with a positive outlook this morning no cogent thoughts or direction. Then I thought 'maybe I'm just having a hard time waking.'

Then I went about services, and then thought about my life in Los Angeles while standing in prayer.

I thought about how I was regimented and would go to Starbucks almost every morning and not always be in a good frame of mind first thing. Paranoia would follow me there too

and it's like I was chasing elements of a life style.

i compared my existence here and how some things are the same but also quite different. I'm with a family here, a community and it's something I wasn't able to create in LA.

I'm still the same person with the same foibles. I am existing though in a wonderful place amongst comrades/companions.

I am also able to manage said foibles or 'see them' a bit better.

I'm lucky and grateful!!