the process, my process

this is being written while I wait for my therapy session.

in an extension of what I wrote yesterday, I realize that part of 

my illness is that I don't process things well all the time.

Again, I am extremely humbled and grateful for the website

which has helped me with all of your input to see glimmers of

new vantages/ways to see things as well as have a sense of my own process

and how I tend to hold onto things. I just am able to step back

and see myself as an individual and how I go about ruminating

or spinning in the moment - and not just all the time lost in thought..

in some inner dark rumination that feels like a goal....

more meta so to speak..which is helping me plan...

well it's all been a growing process and again I am grateful. Sometimes,

like yesterday I can kind of lose my 'processing cap' while trying

to be strong in other ways in my day...still though - just keep on

keeping on...