The People's Fair

Today I went to the people's fair with my mom. It was just her and I. We spoke minimally about the new and upcoming school year. I think it is because I am more confident and ready as I every was before. School is a big thing for me. I think that it is the most important thing to me. I am getting more and more into debt. I can't find a job that I like and I need to get rid of the hundreds of dollars that I am racking up. I know that I will get to it soon, but even if I was to begin to pay it off I know that it will build right up again. I wish I was more wealthy or that my father would be more generous with his money... even though he is amazingly helpful with money, even giving me cash for things that I need outside of the household.  I am sitting at the house waiting for a phone call or a text message telling me when we are going to dinner tonight. I ma going to dinner with Katie Thomas, Jay, and some of Jays family. I think that it will be fun even though I am the only one going without a partner. Oh well. I am going to try to listen more to what others have to say than what I want to talk about. I have this thing about talking about me and my things and not about the interests of others. I think that this drives people away, they don't want to talk to you if all your talking about is well you. I would not want to be that person. I think that I can keep it under control.  I am listening to my step brother argue with his friend because the friend I suppose was going through my room. I hope that he is not going through my medication. Thankfully I have the xanax with me in my bag at all times. AARRGG I am going to check my room and make sure nothing is gone. Hope to talk to you soon.