The Oregon Flute
It is already time for me to stop smoking that stupid pot. It makes me waste away the day and I hate that. I need a clear head these days. I dont have on in the first place and thefore I don't need anything adding to the mix. I am going to just have some cocktails today and relax tomorrow is going to be a big homework day. But after working at the museum all day (I got here very early). I am excited though to get some time to myself tonight. I have to retun my movies to blockbuster. Maybe I'll get a new one.
As I see people wolking around my museum I wonder who they are and wht kind of life they live. Are they happy? Do they have suicidal thoughts? Are they drowning in unsecure debt like me? And if you jump off of a building does you heart really stop before you hit the ground, thust not feeling any pain at all? I dont know where I heard that but it sounded like an interesting fact. I shouldn't be thinking about suicide. I cant help the feeling though. I havean apatite now. I am going to make that steak that mom left me and then have some cheese cake and some liquor, well champaign I suppose I am going to buy myself a new flute. My money pending is scaring me. I can't be spending all of this money. Well I just looked at the flute and it is only $5 so I think I am going to get it.
I am anxious and depressed. I don't know what to do. I wish my dad would suggest that I take some time from school to reasses what I want to do in the future. Though I don't want to stop at school I want my degree. I think that I need to keep job hunting, even though my dad says to stick with school and not go to work, but I am unsure as to how he thinks I am supposed to survive without money. Chi will be home sooner than I think. I dont know what life is going to be like then. I think that my dad if going to go to Vietnam to get her for atleast the last two weeks of her visit there. Or so I think. Plans change so frequently. My time at the museum is almost over so I am going to go and straighten up.
Goodnight moon.
As I see people wolking around my museum I wonder who they are and wht kind of life they live. Are they happy? Do they have suicidal thoughts? Are they drowning in unsecure debt like me? And if you jump off of a building does you heart really stop before you hit the ground, thust not feeling any pain at all? I dont know where I heard that but it sounded like an interesting fact. I shouldn't be thinking about suicide. I cant help the feeling though. I havean apatite now. I am going to make that steak that mom left me and then have some cheese cake and some liquor, well champaign I suppose I am going to buy myself a new flute. My money pending is scaring me. I can't be spending all of this money. Well I just looked at the flute and it is only $5 so I think I am going to get it.
I am anxious and depressed. I don't know what to do. I wish my dad would suggest that I take some time from school to reasses what I want to do in the future. Though I don't want to stop at school I want my degree. I think that I need to keep job hunting, even though my dad says to stick with school and not go to work, but I am unsure as to how he thinks I am supposed to survive without money. Chi will be home sooner than I think. I dont know what life is going to be like then. I think that my dad if going to go to Vietnam to get her for atleast the last two weeks of her visit there. Or so I think. Plans change so frequently. My time at the museum is almost over so I am going to go and straighten up.
Goodnight moon.
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